thts all i can say to you
as i have no more feelings now
and my heart has never ever have a place for you
so .. don think you are very big
cause i know thts wht you think
and don act so loving whn you are not !
somebody surely spoils my mood
-
Science test sucks big time men !
i left lots of question blank ?
like wht the fuck !
eng was damn shoik today !
-winks at cai and abi
we dedicated a song to ms zhuang and all
so funny ! my mood was superr high tht time
watch long mao agn and its sosoo nicee !
went with laura teresa meixian rui jingyu yuai
to j8. watch shrek 2. i think its ok larh
not tht funny but cheered me up a little
went to eat long john silverr ltr
somethng embarrasing happened to.. hmms.
-winks at them.
vrybody was laughing lyk siao !
went home ltr. somethng embarrasing happen to me at the mrt..
dun feel lyk saying cause ppl might say im trying to gain pity or wadever shitt.going to clear all my stuff in my room ltr-dashaochu !
cause its chao messy and vrythng ?
yupps.got traning tmr. dun really feel lyk going afterr..
-
you dont understand me at all
you don even care abt my feelings
you don even give a damn care abt where im going
you don even ask whether im fine
you don even check on me
you don this and tht !
whn i thot you did ; _______
guess my moodswings is back and vrythng
want to tell this to somebody ;
Dont think too highly of urself !
;my saviour; he's in me
i HATE you !
thts all i can say to you
as i have no more feelings now
and my heart has never ever have a place for you
so .. don think you are very big
cause i know thts wht you think
and don act so loving whn you are not !
somebody surely spoils my mood
-
Science test sucks big time men !
i left lots of question blank ?
like wht the fuck !
eng was damn shoik today !
-winks at cai and abi
we dedicated a song to ms zhuang and all
so funny ! my mood was superr high tht time
watch long mao agn and its sosoo nicee !
went with laura teresa meixian rui jingyu yuai
to j8. watch shrek 2. i think its ok larh
not tht funny but cheered me up a little
went to eat long john silverr ltr
somethng embarrasing happened to.. hmms.
-winks at them.
vrybody was laughing lyk siao !
went home ltr. somethng embarrasing happen to me at the mrt..
dun feel lyk saying cause ppl might say im trying to gain pity or wadever shitt.going to clear all my stuff in my room ltr-dashaochu !
cause its chao messy and vrythng ?
yupps.got traning tmr. dun really feel lyk going afterr..
-
you dont understand me at all
you don even care abt my feelings
you don even give a damn care abt where im going
you don even ask whether im fine
you don even check on me
you don this and tht !
whn i thot you did ; _______
guess my moodswings is back and vrythng
want to tell this to somebody ;
Dont think too highly of urself !
;my saviour; he's in me
Saturday, May 22
10:46 am
When I thought i could lean on you
you left me for her
blahhs.having moodswings now.wadever
I did a great deed ystd !
I helped patch up stacey and ann-marie !
If you two fall apart thn there will be no 1 truth . :)
hahas.I was so touched of the whole scenerio tht i cried ?
so touching. anyways stayed back after sch to study with
jean,loo,audrey and e-main. audrey did not really study ?
she keeps talking and jumping arnd ! hahas.
nearly finished the whole book.had a great time with them -winks
and me and the seniors played add-the-cash agn.
was chao fun but thn we did not get through.
meixian got through but she hang up !chao fun-smiles broadly at them
and mej ingyu and teresa did not like two ppl.
we shared our opinions and we discovered more bad things abt them.
thn went to yuai's hse to cut hair. had spagethhi for dinner at
her hse.she was chao funny larh.sonic ! hahas
she and the mother the same one. keep making us laugh
so whn yuai had tuitoin. me and audrey went to cut hair.
my hair is not bad larh.shorter and thinner.
went home with jean to sembawang mrt.
thn her dad drove me home on the way-thnks !
watched shows but thn slept early cause was very tired
ate 3 buns for breakfast thn watched te recorded sunwukong.
going to syudy seriously ltr.planned to finish the rest of the book in 1 hour thn read and mermorise adi ! yahhs !yupp.and all the best for monday's paper !
;my saviour; he's in me
Thursday, May 20
8:10 pm
We were not meant to be
so i shld not force anythng
i am so going to watch oc tonight and die die also must watch even if eyes closing cause i did not watch for like so longg !
yupps. watched a short shenhua gu shi today aftr morning jog
was quite stupid but nice ! i love the birds and i hate the ending .
-boohs. anyway yupp.assembly ended at 1.40 today.was early cause got prize presentation.but our class had to do survey
stayed back with naiying justina ziqian.anges joined us lter
after we studied for quitee longg. they went back.joined the seniors agn. they were studying also. thn we played the addthecash agn.
we got the FIFTHCALLER !!! but NOT the tenth !?
it was so sicko and laura pones was the 1 got pick.we all were so surprised tht it got through ! so funny ! hahahas.
trying the game agn tmr.maybe gonna yuai hse to cut hair also.dunknw larh.went home with jingyu.dunknw why she so sad today.
and dearr jingyu..hope you cheer up kae ? dun be so sad adi .(:smiles always and all.I will always be here if you need a lending ear or a
crying shoulder kae ? iloveyouuu!
;my saviour; he's in me
Wednesday, May 19
7:48 pm
When will you be mine
I want to go to the beach !
-blahhs. keep talking abt it these few days and make me wana go !
lying on the beach and seeing the stars !
hahaha. my imagination is running wild .
mohad was so fierce today
chenlaoshi cant really talk cause she haven recover
stayed back in sch today for sci and geog remedial
not bad larh. learnt alot from the sci remedial ?!
cause did not really listen at the previous lessons
so paid extra attention for ths lesson
thn geog was ok. went canteen to study with loo abi daph
met seniors there. sat with them. thn studied .
but i didnt really study ? dunnknw just copy notes and stuff
thn loo and abi left. thn me and the seniors called the PERFECT 10
radio for the add the cash thingy cause teresa like took down the numbers thn we tried ? so whn the third number comes out
we immeditly called the line.
meteresajingyulauraruiyin all tried.
called a zillion times ! but thn cannot.
hiaz.whn they annouce they had a winner teresa was like
Bitch ! so loudly and it woahs ! fill the whole canteen
with her bombastic voice . not sure whether i spelt correcly
but had a great time with thm and calling the line also !
hahas. nearly have a great time with them everytime
yupps.went home with jingyu. met mum at sembawang mrt agn.
fetch me home so i dun need to walk .
LOVEYOU MUM !
thn whn we were going home we drive past and we saw the sun setting ?!
omg! it was lyk SOSOOSOSOSOSOSO niCE !
tried to capture the scenerio with my pone but very blur
thn mummy even stopped the car for me to take !
so cool lorh! is lyk not everytime you get to see the sun setting?
Fate men. okes. enough abt tht.im going to spend the next 1 hr to revise my geog so..yupps.bye !
;my saviour; he's in me
Tuesday, May 18
3:50 pm
If i cld find you now
things wld get better
Chenlaosshi never come today !
Mohadd never come today !
hahas. both teachers never come but thn still had some work to do
went home with audrey after sch
wanted to go north point popular to buy a new file ?
but thn realised i had no money and i still have debts haven returned
sia. begin to fall inlove with oceanavenue
:) nice song. still have ipw haven do and geog revision..
realised geog test is on MONDAY !
and still got alot of thngs never do lyk maths revision.
hiaz /
;my saviour; he's in me
Sunday, May 16
8:51 pm
Ill come to you by moonlight
though hell should bear the way
Went to tiong bahru foodcourt to eat today
quite nice the food escpecially the chee kuah
ate hokkien mee little of this and tht
quite full adi
family went chong pang just now
i stayed it the car
dont feel like walking and i was thinking about something serious
was chilling out with a book today
quite interesting larh
dunnoe why but i hate to go to sch tmr ?
Dun really feel like going /=
went pass the esplanade today
remind me of..ystd-winks at laurateresaruiyin
the hairstyle really looklike alot !
;my saviour; he's in me
Saturday, May 15
9:40 pm
I hope you will notice me;
but you never will
-
had traning today. woke up at 6:15
and sorry jingyu ! caused you to wake up so early and the ave 2 gate also not open hai ni have to walk 1 big rnd with me.
sorry ! :( cause i feel lyk going to sch early ? dunnow why /
went orchard with teresa laura siewmin jingyu ruiyin
watch 50 first dates with teresa laura siewmin
jingyu and ruiyin watched van helsing instead.
was damn nice the show lorh ! so romantic and we were wondering if there rally was this kinda guy on the earth; maybe there is or maybe there isnt. hope so. lyk the song in the movie.
i was lyk so broke lorh. went orchard with 2plus ?
not even enough to buy movie ticket ?
had to borrow frm everybody.
went taka aftr tht. went foodcourt.
was so tempted with the food ?
laura teresa bought and i was sosososo tempted ?!
sia. didnt buy in the end. siewmin in the end bought the thingy for us
met jingyu and rui aftr their show but thn siewmin and jingyu have to go cause they got something on.
went wisma and shop shop - cause did not have money ?
went heeren thn. went to eat mache.
called tht a high class place .
bought a plate of potato.thn me and rui share.
thn sumthing happened there to laura.
very funny leh. i think i shld not tell ?
yupps.think im not going to sleep so early tonight?
still quite awake yet sleepy.
-
My sister is an IRRITATING BITCH !!!
;my saviour; he's in me
Friday, May 14
10:55 pm
There is a reason for everything
but what is the reason of my presense in this wrold ;
-
Yahhs! im selected for 4-aside !
hahas. grp members ae : me yuai audrey vinnie winnie beatrice
ok maybe its not the ideal team but im sure we can be united
if we wants to ? yupps. so we must stay united and defeat the rest of the teams incluiding ouyr sch ones lyk the c'div and sec 3
and maybe not all of us can go in to finals but maybe
we can lyk have a team go into finals thn it will also be
ST NICKS glory ! wohoos !
-
mohadd scolded someone at the begiining of the lesson
and its lyk whts his prob ?
Daphne did not come today . went to the doc .
hope you get well soon and come back asap okay ?!
sandra was sick also ?
hope you recover fast fast ! and we wil miss you both !
dnt i painted my wood [hockey sticks]
quite nice ? noyt as bad as i expected.
after finish we sat outside the dnt room - facing the netball court
and the ambience was quite nice ? it was windy ! (:
and we talk abnt ghost stories ! although the qi fen not vry nice.hahas
-
went macs before going taning.
fiveghosts,abigailtan,winiesoh
we all took out all our coins and see wht we can buy thn .
bought 2 packets of large fries and some bought ice-cream.
while we were sitting we had part of our 5ghosts meeting
tok alittle but thn it was interupted cause laura said we had to go for training adi.met the seniors at macs too cause jingyu and ruiyin cut hair.went back to sch together.
and winnie : don worry too much and always look
on the bright side of life kae ?
had training.was not too bad.not tht tiring cause today warm up
we were so far frm the team ?! aiyah always the last larh.
but sorry tht we have to trouble jingyuandruiyin ?!
went tuition ltr.and the cute guy i was saying made me change the impression soooo much ? he sudd come in wif his hair dyed ?
had ear-holes and wore the sex-bands? omg lorh.thot he was a gd guy larh but my impression change totally today.hiaz
nan dao shi jie shang mei you hao nan ren le mah
so pity.father pick me up and bought waffles for me !:)
went home and watch the recorded show and i HATE the ending fo rlashionglamei ! i dun wan him to die !
why must he die..so unfair.sick.hahas.so jidong
and i missed SURVIVOR !!!!???
I didnt knw today have larh.till yuai told me tht winnie told her
rahhs ! i had missed the renioun and the last episode adi larh..
so idiot leh /
got traning tmr and have
fiveghosts meeting tmr also .
goanna pour out all our probs !
yupp if not we are gonna topple and i dun want tht
-
ICANLEARNDRUMS !
isit cool ?! (: -thousands smile on my face.
i beg so long and they finally said yes ?
but i have to pay the fees myself.
NVM. i CAN LEARN DRUMS !
SO COOL ! hahas.at least this can keep me happy for the week !
;my saviour; he's in me
Thursday, May 13
10:18 pm
Everday is a new day gained ;
so we shld treasure the present
and not worry or be filled with
disgust as you might not know
whn you will drop dead
-
learned this neaming from the show
it is quite true .. ?
yupps. wanted to just die today but thn
my mood turned for the better so i did not.
and we shld treasure the present and not keep thinking abt the past
cause we cant change it or go back to time.
we had regretted so many thngs we did last time
so instead of thinking and buring urself in the thoughts of history,
why dont we look into the future and treasure everyone arnd you.
ok i knw i toking alot of sense but thn . -rahhs
slept the whole assembly today ..?
its lyk huh . and i completely never hear a thing the contestants were saying except maybe the first two ?
yupps.went amk pizza hut with laura and mei xian today
ordered a meal and we all shared.
and got sumone.. sitting behind us and it was so funny larh..
whn they were talking we kept making comments and shes not tht pretty at all ? yet theres two boys flirting over her..
and i dun see wht she sees in them
and now thn i knw me and laura shares the samw views in guys. hahas.
we lyk the same kind.
had a really fun time with them.
went popular after tht . i bought a new blue pen and a orangee pen
i also bought a new book ! its the xutianshi one larh !
so damn nice ! cant wait to read it but i have to finish angelas ashes first.and meixian not abit buy one whole set lyk 40 bucks ?
laura bought book for her fren as birthday pres.
after tht went back home.
went tuition which doesnt sucks as i thot.
still have alot of work to do and dnt still haven paint finish yet larh..Daphne not gonna sch tmr ? so sad larh..
nobody tok to me..by the way we made up so yarrh.
gonna have a fiveghosts tok tmr and we goanna change our clique
name coz we decided to add aum1 else and tht will be said ltr..
so yarr. gonna pack my thngs now.
tata ! and dun keep thinking abt history kae ?
cause we are living in the future !
and the future rocks ! -i doubt so
;my saviour; he's in me
Wednesday, May 12
10:12 pm
If you die,i die
but if i die , will u die with me ? i knw yuai,meixian,ruiyin,jingyu lorraine will die with me
and i will die with you all too
-
chao tired larh.
sia.my parents are so..
wadever.dun feel lyk toking abt it ?
feel darm irritated with someone ?
so fustrating.
had chinese test today.
was quite hard ?
cause i nearly dunnoe vrythng ? ok mybe not tht kua zhang
but yarrs.and..
jingyu bought for me chocos !
thnks alot ! `loveyyaa ! :)
had goeg remedial before training .
dunnoe why but thn during the remedail
me and yuai both become very sad ?
lyk we both thot of..yarrs.thn turn very very menmenbule
after rememdial still have training ?
ran 2 rnds . after tht we-meyuaidaphabbo-did warm ups.
after tht we both sat at the track there?
thinking abt .. laid down and thn wanna say thnks to those
who comforted us ? yupps.
thn training was chao slack ?
after training
me,ruiyin lorraine and jinyu walked arnd the track ?
talked abt wht has been bothering me ?
blurted it all out.got advices frm thm.
was quite a nice stroll cause part of it we were holding hands ?
hahas.darm nice.yuai walked with meixian so whn we meet
halfway we were lyk hello?haha.-winks at them
thn we stopped and meixian went home.we all
wore all socks and shoes first . scared ms lim scold
thn meyuaijingyuruiyin walked agn ?
talked more . and the sky was darm nice .
the colour especially.thn we laid on the track and admimiring the track . toking abt things lyk if u die i will also die with you.
thn went macs with ruiyin and jingyu. sat for awhile thn went home with jingyu.on the way we were toking abt how nice it wld be if we were animals ? thn no need to go through so much pain .
lyk love this kinda shit things.
came home.ate dinner.curry ? it was lyk so hott !
cant take it and gave it to my father.yarr.watch the show !
i am so inlove with it! love it alot !
so nicee! hearing perfect on the radio now.so nice.
hiaz.thot alot today . i think i am gonna just live like this and
not try to forget anythng ?
dunnoe.all this shit larh.
-
yuai jingyu ruiyin lorraine and meixian : hey ! thanks alot for like wht happened today . yupps.
thnks for all the counselling and advices.
thot alot abt it and came to a final decision.
yupps ! really had a great time with you all !
thnks for being there whn i needed you all !
if you have anything to say abt ,
i will be here even if the wrld is falling apart.
`loveyouall ! fathug !
Laura Sorry ! i knw you were vry pissed off with us right ?
sosososososososo sorri ! we did not listen to wht you were saying
and got so irritated . and i wasnt in a vry gd mood and you had
to comfort us even whn u were sad ? sorry alotalotalot !
we promise to listen attentifvely to you next time !
`huggs
;my saviour; he's in me
Tuesday, May 11
4:38 pm
You never give us a chance to be together
I'll do anything
I give you my wrds
i will wait forever
to be ur girl
Just call out my name
i'll be there
to show you
how much i care
-
had first mohadd lesson today ?
not tht bad larh. but im not sure larh
first time only. and i can tell his jokes are lame ?
had geog lter ? got 21 1/2 / 30 ?
not bad rite ?was like claaping for myself and mouth open bigbig
larh.look so stupid.but ms lau laugh at me.haha
had eng after tht ? got back compre ?
16 1/2 / 30 . very good larh and ms zhuang say tht she tried very hard to help us pass ?
so it prove tht im darm lan ! must buck up leh .
and tmr have chi test ? haven started studying yet im here
but nvm larh.went to make ez-link card after sch ?
waited fr lyk 0300-0345 ? studied alittle ?
yupp.thn took bus home.realised tht sumone
life experience so same like mine ? hahas-i think u knw hu u are
-
i think i shld get something done by today ?
hiayah.but i feel very tired and sad .?
stupid me.moodswings agn.
-
:(((((((((((((((((((((
;my saviour; he's in me
Monday, May 10
8:52 pm
hAPpy BirTHdAY dENISE !
hope you had enjoyed a wonderful day and had appreciated all the nice
present we gave you ! although we were alittle seperated this year and you had ur own circle of friends..remember tht i will always be here still if you need me okae ?! and this is the 5th birthday i celebrated with you ! so smile always and be the usual denise i had known kae ?
We had went throught thick and thin together to come to this stage of friendship ! so i dun wana break or destroy it ! once agn..
happy birthday ! :) smile always and i will be here if your wrld falls apart.
;my saviour; he's in me
If you die and left me alone,
i swear i will cry till my tears fill the pacific ocean
and my heart will be broken to a million pieces .
-
will you do tht for me ? did not dare ask you tht.
-
sudd felt very happy.
i shall describe every single detail ?
went sch today by sch bus
listen to the radio on the way ?
came down from the bus ask jean and jac
to help me put my bag and file in class ?
thnks ! cause i tot we were running morning jog ?
but all thnks to my injured leg and yuai abbo did not run,
i did not run also.but they rest of the team ran ?
jingyu and siewmin ran 3.the rest ran 2
thn had assebly.did not really hear wht they saying.
cant be bothered.thn had aliitle of pc
did nopt hear the hu toking also.
had pe.softball.so fun ! but our oppenents are strong ?
so ..yarrs.went back for maths.
ofcourse did not hear her speaking agn.
plan a hockey outing while maths lesson.
for those who want further info.
we will be having a meeting on wed.
thn recess.ate kway teao.drank icelemon tee.
aiyah dun really feeel lyk saying adi..
so in a simple way of saying is,
i had a great time today and did not hear wht teachers are saying.
after sch went cousin hse.met him at braddel mrt.
so kind rite.specially go mrt wait for me !
and he did not let me wait.
hahas.went his hse ate dumpling and drank liang cha.
burn songs..explore the hse and his medals..talk for a whle
thn went home adi..was so scared tht i was lost ?
in an area tht im unfamiliar with ?
but thnks to winnie's accompany and msg.
i manage to go back home safely.
thts all i think ?
-
i miss you badly cant wait to see you
-
baahs
have xiangsibing agn
;my saviour; he's in me
Sunday, May 9
10:44 pm
Happy mother's day
hope my mum and all the mothers in the wrld had a great time ?
(: remeber to smile always mum ! and if ur daughter requests something
the best you cld do is accept and not reject. :)
think my mum wont be able to see this..
i will die if she realli did.
woke up at 11.30 lyk tht ?
kinda late thought..slept at 12 plus to study geog ystd
watched huanzhugege..so touching.
if only.. nvm
thn mum and sisters came back from foodcourt
bought for me lunch
thnks ! gave mum my card i made for her.
she smiled and said thnks ! hahas.
thn sought of studied. flip pages only laa
thn dad came back..thought he wld buy roast duck for dinner
but apparently he did not..watch alittle of shuangtianzhicun
before going out for dinner. went to sakae sushi at the
sembawang shopping centre outlet.ate till very full.
walk arnd thn went giant.
bought 2 notebooks and ankle sock
came back home and watch the rest of the recorded gambling show ?
so nice. hiayah..if only..wadever.
thn came here to blog now before sleeping.
looking forward to tomms [?]
dunnoe why but sudd fill like i like sch and everybody
but hate the teachers still..i think im back to the old me !
hope it lasts ! well cya tomms !
;my saviour; he's in me
Saturday, May 8
8:40 pm
ok ! going to have a long and happy entry today !
so you all must have the patience.
Gonna blog for ystd also . MUST!
Firstly-wanted to say Happy Belated Birthday Jingyu !
I will still be here even if everybody give up on you kae ?
smiles always ! :)
Ystd Had not a good time ystd morning.
was sad all the way till traning ?
moodswing agn ? sia.wadever.the new me.
yupp.thn lter had traning ?
coach said my hits improved ! and with a little more improvement
maybe i can get into the team !but better not say so highly first.
yuaiandaudrey went to para..dunnoe wht. was kinda boring and quiet
without them ?and some of the sec twos went to a mental talk.
was very little ppl ?but still the same.training ws continued.
we were all hoping it wld not.
thn after traing.yuai and audrey came back with the cake we juniors
bought for jinyu ! and the marchbabes ! .everybody took a piece
thn we got sick of it. but still left a big piece.more thn 1/4
and we had to finish the many bottles of drink also.
so we played a game called zhong qi mi ma.
-winks at everybody
loser must either drink one cup or eat a bite of the cake
was kinda twice. loser me. but it was fun !
thn lter whn we were getting the hang of it.
the stupid auntie called us to go out coz the sch have to close soon
thn we went to macs with pqs,fiveghost and minfang
some of our seniors went toilet and ate.
so the rest of us went playgrnd.-fiveghost,jingyu,lorraine,siewmin,minfang
sat on the swing and sang songs.so dark but fun.
thn we started to sit in a circle to do some mischevious things.
so funny ! and fun ! thn lter laura,meixuan,rui and teresa
came to say gd bye.thn soon abi mother came and daphne also went.
ltr siew min also went home.
so left me,yuai,jinyu,lorraine and minfang
went macs coz we tot so late and dark.
carried everythng there.sat outside.all of us bought food to eat as we were
hungry.thn we started to play agn.some of thm so bitchy larh. but still had a great time.-winks at them
after a long time we went home.
all of us except lorraine sat the same taxi .
went to minfang hse first,dropped off minfang and yuai.
thn went my hse first coz i was scared to sit alone in the taxi.
had a small talk with jingyu.
and want to tell you tht if you wanto cry out loud u can cry all you want
coz i will be here to lend you a crying shoulder kae ?
and even if the whole wrld give up on you, i will still be here.
reached home.bathe and thn watch the recorded 9oclock show
lashionglamei.very nice leh ! thn slept adi coz very sleepy.
Today woke up at 6.30 . took mrt to khatib.waited for jingyu
went yck together.took bus to sch.changed socks on the bus.
after we drop off the bus, we hear discman together and
we wanted to planned hao to walk in lyk everythng none of our buisness
and listen to the songs.whn went in i saw someone..smile immediatly came
onto my face-winks and smile broadly at jingyu.
ltr after hearing few more songs.started warm up.we were
not bad today.did not left until very behind.
thn coach come and us we all to do some drills and excersice.
thn time came very fast.we played matches.i was defending.
and coach said i was aggresive ! and if i knw how to pass to my teamates
thn i wld have improve agn ! hahas.but thn i hurt alot of ppl
by knocking onto them .sorri !-amamnda,yuai and daph and weilin.
Sorry ! i think i used to much force tht now my hands and legs are aching ?
after training me yuai audrey daphne laura and ruiyin sat down
to lyk have a talk ? but ended up dunnoe tok wht !
we even planned to have an outing at the beach !
june hols ! cant wait.we will have such a fun time !
thn after the 'talk'audrey and daphne went home
ruiyin went to tok to lorraine.
so me yu ai and laura played schildish game but it was fun all the same/.
:) thn yuai went home.jingyu and lorraine wok up from their beauty sleep
we went macs together except lorraine.ruyin went amk central adi.
so the 3 of us ate lunch.unfornuately we sat near the soyabean shop
and it kept banging so i bank back.but thn it caused alot of ppl to stare
at me / us so embrassing.sorry-looks apogetically at jingyuandlorraine
thn we saw another disgusting thing.
was wondering if she also have why dun we have ?
-hurrs.rubbish-looks at the two
thn jingyu mum came to pick her up
lorraine let me take a lift to amk mrt at the same time pick up meixian .
meixian: you look pretty with ur hair down and wearing a hairband leh !
thn went home.have a long afternoon nap.lyk slept at 3 woke at 7 ?
ate lunch thn here i am.guess i was tired after these 2 days events.
but it was fun !haven got started on my geog revision and hmk ?
better start doing.-give face
well, had a really great time today
took my mind off things.
the old me is back now !
;my saviour; he's in me
Thursday, May 6
5:26 pm
If one grain of sand represent that I miss you,
the beach will be full of sand by now
Had a not bad time today..
but maybe not tht gd
was quite ok act tis morning
thn lter had morning jog.
was raining so ran indoors.
vrybody was very slack larh.
half of it we were walking
thn lter had eng enrich.not tht bad.
thn had eng. did finish my work earlier
so went recess with same ppl earlier.
thn after tt came back had e.lit.
where i sudd started to feel very tired and sad
I duunnoe why but just felt lk tht.
got moodswings recently. it just nt the usual me..
the old jessalynn dont usually have moodswings.
thn was very tired and sad for the whole day.especially maths
so pissed at fung .not sure why.buts its not her fault
its the unusual me.thn lter went hall for pc
was very bu shuang already.
thn the yuai and audrey sudd came from the back and pushed me relli hard ?
was lyk pissed/sad/tired/confused
all together ? thn after they pshed me i sort of cry ?
= / sicko larh.dont feel lyk elaborating.
thn lter after everythng went to eat tou hua with audrey
went to yishun together.
went to interchange to make card act.
but thn they sudd say tht have to bring birth cert along larh.
with a passport size photo
lyk huh ? they never even say so I cant make.
but audrey is spoil so can ,make but mus wait till 4.30 and its was lyk
3.15 so we went to take photo-only me.thn lter went hairshop.
wanted to buy hair stuff.thn i thot of mini toons.maybe got nicer thngs
so went there .bought marshmellow. thn we thot of buyng pres
for urm.. yarrs. so went to gift -a-name.niothing.went card and such
nothing.so went back mini toons and bought the pres.
thn lter I have to bring home cause audrey scared tht her dad scolded her
thn we went back to interchange to take bus.audrey thn took her card.
yupp.thn reached home..received a call..so freaky ! but happy !
haha.it means i have potential but lter they see me thn reject me.
sia.nvm.forget it.hope everybody have a great time ?
and not like the new me ? yarrs.i promised tht the old me will be back soon.
NONONONONONO Common test tmr ! hahas.
all smiles. (:
;my saviour; he's in me
Wednesday, May 5
8:44 pm
Everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings
I feel so small,
I guess I need you baby ;
Heelllo!!! 2 gd thngs to annouce today !
1- I got gold for Napfa ! vrybody pls feel happy for me ! (:
Must thank- Louisa,Ms zhuang,Mr mohad,Ms chen and I truthians ! - muzhishang . hahas
without them maybe i wun even get gold. (:
you all rocks my socks !!!
2nd- I finally found sumone whos birthday is same as me !!!
Finally !!! Imagine-whn she is celebrating her 1st birthday ,
sumone in this wrld is born ! and thts me ! (: hahas.yupps.
today alot happened ! lessons first till recess thn lter geraldine had to re-run
her napfa. so we went down to support her.
but the rest of 1 truthians who didnt went down shouted frm above !
-canteen i mean. starting to find our class vry united.
thn whn geraldine ran a few rnds, me,e-main,abbo decided to run with geraldine.to support her all the way ! So fun.and i did a gd deed !
thn had lessons agn till end of the day.
ate lunch wif yuaiaudreye-mainandaudrey
thn went to forumm for napfa.
started with sitandreach first. did not tht gd.
thn went to pull-ups.darm scary and nervous larh.
thn whn it is my turn. so scared tht i cant do well ?
ms zhuang enouraged me.so did some of i T ppl !
they were very supportive ?!yupps.-muzhishang
thn did 15 !!!-cheers ! haha.so happy !
thn went to shuttles. act went to mdm zhang.but waited for so long
the queue did not move ? so went down to tabletennis court there.
did not bad but tried second time thn got A.
went to sit-ups next.haha.still remember..
cannopt say anythng.thn lastly went to standing broad jump.
i think i did not really did tht well
but mr mohad write my score like not bad.Thank you!
yupps.thn got hockey training.did not relly train.
instead we the sec ones went to find and pick the balls-shall not elaborate.
thn after the whole thing whn we going back.we the 5-ghosts sudd deciced to do sumthng so coach wun be so angry.
we held hands thn stand in a row,took a deep bow and said thnk you! -second time said have a nice day.hahas.so funny.even mrs chan like it alot.
thn went hm wif jinyu ate tou hua also.thn sang songs on the bus.
vry nice.nearly empty but gt sum1 infront.
but hu cares.thts all i think.
going to see 9 o clock show now.tata bverybody,.
really had a nice day today. (:
;my saviour; he's in me
Tuesday, May 4
5:16 pm
Can't you see tht im your angel,
your forgotten angel ?
Had a niceee wallet for birthday pres !
thankyou huiyu ! hahas. thnkyou mum !
thankyou ann-marie !
realise im a thick-skinned person ? so fast ask ppl for pres adi.
and my birthdy haven come yet ? hurrs.
anyway had a nicee wallet from huiyu ! -same as loo
but hu cares.its nice. had a new bag from mum also.
the roxy one larhs.today sch was finee ?
but my elit is chao sucky ? got 13/25
nearly failled ? sia.vrybody lyk got 15 larh. and im so lousy in it
wadever.thts it ? thn went to town with huiyu.
went to paragon first to eat.
huiyu ate brownie-so nicee ! i ate the orangejulius hotdog bread plus sprite.thn went metro get huiyu mum's the sk II mask ?
ex larh. 114.thn lter her sis atm card declined.
so mus pay cash ? yupps. thn went to the quiksilver shop
huiyu wanted to see/buy a bag ?
and i sun bian help see whether got lorraine want the wallet anot .
but dun even have both ? thn went heeren to buy
the wallet we both wanted. huiyu bought diff design.yupss.
went to the flash splash. no bags and also no wallets nice for lorraine.
so sorri looraine ! cant find any ? nx time kae ?
thn lter went hmv to see whether have the cd daphne wanted ?
-out of stock ? shity-vrythng also dun have.
thn lter went hm liao.haiyo.vry scared of my napfa tmr !!!
:( aiming for gold act. but my pull ups push me down i think
i cant do so many larh. so now aiming for silver or pass larh.
aiyah.nvm larh. try harder next year lorh.and also cannot
lin shi bao for jiao adi now ? so i let my ming zhu ding or god.
hiaya.not sure.but whts meant to be is meant to be yupps.have to go bath now.
seeya lter or tomms !
--i vry scared !!? :(
;my saviour; he's in me
Sunday, May 2
9:27 pm
trying all my might
to forget all the joy and pos thinking
you brought me ;
didnt do alot today.
eat , watch tv, eat thn watch tv agn.
siaz..im getting fat. keep eating durian !
its so nicee ! :) haha. but its fattening !
boos . was pretty ok today .
except for a few headaches .
and lyk now i also have.
kept slapping myself . it does work actually.
got sch tmr ! hoping to see my friends !
dunnoe why so excited. -slaps myself. [tot of sumthng]
my bag ! hahas. yupps. cant wait to use it !
thn hoping to .. -slaps myself agn
rubbish me.wadever. forget it
cant wait to see vryone !
and audrey , laura.
can help me think of a new layout or sumthng.
pls ? i beg you .. dots..
`iloveyou !!!
seevryone tmr !!!
loveyouall !!!
;my saviour; he's in me
If a hundred horses and thousands can pull me away from you ,
I swear i wont be here by now ;
If cutting of wrists would make me forget all the pain in me,
my wrist wld not be able to have space to cut by now ;
If tearing of heart can make me forget you,
I swear my heart will be torn to pieces by now ;
I tried so hard to forget you
and when i tot i had succeded
thousands thoughts of you came to my mind
you had not only cause my heart to bleed
you had also shot a bullet in my head.
If a bullet can make you love me ,
If a bullet can make you look at my direction
If a bullet can make you talk to me
If a bullet can make you fufill all my desires
I swear my head will be full of bullets by now.
When will you ever noticed me ?
-
I love teresa ! hahas.thanks a lot for hearing me out
and giving me advices.I knw you had tried very hard also
so im going tot put in twice the effort
no matter how much hurt it cost.
`Iloveyoutillwrdscantdescribe
-
there are many fishes in the sea
there are many pebbles in the sand ;
I believe in this thing called love.
Dont let todays disappointment cast a shadowon tmr's dream
-
;my saviour; he's in me
Saturday, May 1
10:53 pm
I thought i cld forget you
but in actual fact
u are still in my heart
making the wound deeper day by day ;
i am going to try real hard to forget you
cause i knw im not worthy for you
and i knw i will be even more hurt
if i continue to like you ;
im going to put all my heart to forget you
cause im scared of hurt
;my saviour; he's in me
Thought it over ;
begin to find a reason for vrythg
and found tht you were always in my heart.
Heya ! so long never blog adi ! finally had found a time !
Want feeling vry good this wk ? so didnt feel lyk blogging.
especially ystd . had moodswings. sudd 'cause of sumthng
thn begin to turn vry sad.was so sick ystd day larhhs.
had flu and stomachache.thn had headache.didnt want to train.
mrs chan say ask my mum to pick me up.didnt wanto cause she working
and scared she scold me ? working halfway thn call her to come.
teacher dun even understnd.thn was lyk so sad.cant concentrate
during lessons and tuition.thinking of sumthng.
thn had thought it over.thought till real careful.
and just thought of sumthng :
thinking pos is worse thn neg as if u think neg
and thn the truth reveals,the hurt will be greater _____
yupps.enough of tht sad thngs.
bought a new roxy bag today.
can cancel tht on my list
went out wif loo,daph and yuai !
met at yiochukang mrt.yuai was late.
thn went to orchard first to go wisma
the shuftshit shop-looks and grins sheepishly at loo,daph n yuai :)
i wanted to buy the roxy bag . mum gave me 50
cause act wanted to buy another one.but thn saw the other one.
thn gave 10 extra out.59 bucks.thn the suftshit shop dun hv 3
cause lter loo and daph lyk it too.so loo bought first.
ask the assistant to book for us at pacific plaza
thn we went there to buy .
thn lter went urm.macs to eat.didnt really eat.
yuai bought meal.we bought drinks onli.
so kept eating yuai's fries.hahahas.sorri !
went fareast to buy clothes and other stuffs
didnot buy no money.but loo bought clothes.she and daph
also bought pencil case.thn lter went taka.shop and eat aliitle.
thn daph went home and thn i saw my uncleandaunt !
they were eating at one of the restaurants. rich !went to say hello
and byes2.lame.but so fun seeing them.oyah also saw jeanette aw.
-jingjing-holland.v she is darm pretty.yuai saw at first,thn
she turn her head arnd so i saw.but they didnt saw so we went chasing her?
hahas.lame but yarrss.but didnt get to see her and we were already at the
end so turn back.thn after daph went home.we went heeren.loo bought
wallet.wanted to buy the same model ?! quite cheap lorh.nice too.
thought for a long time but thn dunwant.
save to buy with audrey during june.thn lter a lady cornered us for wht horroscope thng ?only aim for loo.hahas.tok for a long time but thn lter rejected her.oh.we all bought audrey somethng also.happy anot ?
u get to knw on monday.
cant wait for monday ! all have same bag.and i think we are the onli first three to have this bag ?hahas.had a great time today.but thn thougt of wht i had been thinking.thn abit menmenbule.hiaya.forget about it larh.
oh-1 more thing .GD LUCK meixian and lorraine for tmr match !
we will always support you!
-
blog quite long today.go adi larh.head want to pain adi.seeya on monday!
;my saviour; he's in me
Thought it over ;
begin to find a reason for vrythg
and found tht you were always in my heart.
Heya ! so long never blog adi ! finally had found a time !
Want feeling vry good this wk ? so didnt feel lyk blogging.
especially ystd . had moodswings. sudd 'cause of sumthng
thn begin to turn vry sad.was so sick ystd day larhhs.
had flu and stomachache.thn had headache.didnt want to train.
mrs chan say ask my mum to pick me up.didnt wanto cause she working
and scared she scold me ? working halfway thn call her to come.
teacher dun even understnd.thn was lyk so sad.cant concentrate
during lessons and tuition.thinking of sumthng.
thn had thought it over.thought till real careful.
and just thought of sumthng :
thinking pos is worse thn neg as if u think neg
and thn the truth reveals,the hurt will be greater _____
yupps.enough of tht sad thngs.
bought a new roxy bag today.
can cancel tht on my list
went out wif loo,daph and yuai !
met at yiochukang mrt.yuai was late.
thn went to orchard first to go wisma
the shuftshit shop-looks and grins sheepishly at loo,daph n yuai :)
i wanted to buy the roxy bag . mum gave me 50
cause act wanted to buy another one.but thn saw the other one.
thn gave 10 extra out.59 bucks.thn the suftshit shop dun hv 3
cause lter loo and daph lyk it too.so loo bought first.
ask the assistant to book for us at pacific plaza
thn we went there to buy .
thn lter went urm.macs to eat.didnt really eat.
yuai bought meal.we bought drinks onli.
so kept eating yuai's fries.hahahas.sorri !
went fareast to buy clothes and other stuffs
didnot buy no money.but loo bought clothes.she and daph
also bought pencil case.thn lter went taka.shop and eat aliitle.
thn daph went home and thn i saw my uncleandaunt !
they were eating at one of the restaurants. rich !went to say hello
and byes2.lame.but so fun seeing them.oyah also saw jeanette aw.
-jingjing-holland.v she is darm pretty.yuai saw at first,thn
she turn her head arnd so i saw.but they didnt saw so we went chasing her?
hahas.lame but yarrss.but didnt get to see her and we were already at the
end so turn back.thn after daph went home.we went heeren.loo bought
wallet.wanted to buy the same model ?! quite cheap lorh.nice too.
thought for a long time but thn dunwant.
save to buy with audrey during june.thn lter a lady cornered us for wht horroscope thng ?only aim for loo.hahas.tok for a long time but thn lter rejected her.oh.we all bought audrey somethng also.happy anot ?
u get to knw on monday.
cant wait for monday ! all have same bag.and i think we are the onli first three to have this bag ?hahas.had a great time today.but thn thougt of wht i had been thinking.thn abit menmenbule.hiaya.forget about it larh.
oh-1 more thing .GD LUCK meixian and lorraine for tmr match !
we will always support you!
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blog quite long today.go adi larh.head want to pain adi.seeya on monday!
